-Tuesday, March 31, 2009 '
wake up to a fresh new morning, with one lesser commitment. i cant say im totally not sad uh. but i'll be missing some of the times with you eh. hahaha.
anw, this brought me back to things last year (again). how scary (and stunning) that things were so similar to another. but the one great difference is that we could still talk, that i'm quite glad.
looking back, there are too much i-dont-knows, and i believed i protected myself way too much. bestie said i gotta thank someone from my past that i could survive it last night. yeah i think so too. if it wasn't for him, i would throw myself out, yet again. and i'm worried for myself too, i dont know this part of me, is it just a pretence to be alright (when i'm totally not), or am i really alright. i really dont know.
it was a little bit of everything that caused us to behave this way i guess. i think it would be hard to say that you didn care at all about them. you see, even the start of this paragraph has uncertainties already. i'll go @.@ if i count the number of uncertainties in the entire entry.
i'll be hanging out with bestie for the entire day later. the plans for the day weren't like that initially. hahaha. but anw, i'll commit myself to work and bestie more now. i wanna go back to life the way it was in january 08 till april 08. its time i take out my flute and start playing it again.
the last thing that a girl would want to hear her boyfriend say is that she deserves someone better.
8:22 AM; &I'll let it all end here.
-Thursday, March 26, 2009 '
oh man. my birthday falls on a school day.
i'm wondering if its good or bad. hmmm.
12:05 PM; &I'll let it all end here.
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i'm back from telunas indonesia! its really really really pretty there! (a bit too pretty for a LTC. hahaha.) well anw, i slept a lot after i reached home. heh. and sorry for being out of reach from 22nd to 24th. i dont know if i received your smses too. hahaha.
i saw many many many crabs,
i saw a pretty pretty pretty beach,
i saw a beautiful beautiful beautiful nightsky,
and i saw a clean sea.
these are the things that you'll never find in singapore, and they're so pretty that everything you do, you try to leave it as it is. the first day was jungle trekking, and the second was at the resort. the second day felt so stress-free that you would really think that you're on a holiday (with all the beautiful scenery).
now i'm back in singapore, and back to reality. working later at somewhere new, and i do hope that everything goes well. and i gotta look for replacements for all the sundays before term starts. thats 3 more sundays to go. gosh.
i need to take a look at next year's academic calendarrrrr. I WANT MY BIRTHDAY TO BE A HOLIDAY! :D
10:39 AM; &I'll let it all end here.
-Thursday, March 19, 2009 '
in a dilemma, again.
and this time, its worse.
i feel like moving. heh.
3:46 PM; &I'll let it all end here.
-Wednesday, March 18, 2009 '
bumped into shirley last thursday in the movies. pure coincidence eh. she even got the seat next to me. i think she stalked me, not the other way around. hahaha. btw, its rcc, not ccr. HEH.
quite a hectic weekend i had, as usual. cscc day is over, and i'm done burning the discs. hooray! :D i still love my dear lappy okay. but really sorry for the trouble yeah. i dont know what i could do then.
work is insanely busy in the afternoon. wayyyyy more busy than the weekends, because we're shorthanded because of cost-cutting measures. if we're shorthanded because we're understaffed, theres really only one thing i can say, they should have seen it coming. hah.
i think work will be insanely busy tmr night. damn. i'm still lacking sleep. i dont like to be a runnerrrrr. :(
"if you were the new burger at mcdonalds, you would be the mcgorgeous."
HAHAHA.
release of results tmr morning. gosh.
1:03 AM; &I'll let it all end here.
-Monday, March 09, 2009 '
Another quizzzzz!
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
click
here!
7:22 PM; &I'll let it all end here.
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Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
i did this quiz last april, and i've changed a bit. hehehe. oh wells. haha.
6:48 PM; &I'll let it all end here.
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pretty busy and worn out these few days. esp my heels! super pain ah. it feels like the cycle during the october holidays is beginning again.
work has been fun, tiring (and underpaying) these few days. HAHAHA.
fun because i had an assistant on friday night. (heh heh :D)
and there were many many desserts on saturday night.
i almost ran out of footed pilsner, and i had to top up my things while doing desserts. HAHA.
but it was fun. HEH.
and i think i have 职业病. mama got a box of strawberries for me, and the first thing i thought of was the container of strawberries inside the db. HAHAHA. its not my fault! they look the same! :p
alright. im gng do my stuffs already. heh.
P.S. i'm losing all my reasons to blog.
2:33 PM; &I'll let it all end here.
-Wednesday, March 04, 2009 '
i really wonder if what i'm doing is right.
开心就好
I 开心 but 不安心
in life, you'll gain some, you'll lose some.
i've really made up my mind about some things.
but now, i'll need to think about how i should bring it across.
okay. enough of the emo stuffs.
DAC09 CLASS CHALET
okay i was really really really late. and i think i ate really a lot. hoho. then truth or dare after bbq. and then some things happened, well but its over. take care of yourselves okay people. the second and third day of chalet was a little dry ah. most of the time, there is at least one person sleeping. and then the remaining people caught marley & me at downtown east. only the part towards the end was nice. then we set up the bbq pit again. thanks edmund for starting the fire, though we didn eat much. =x and then a few rounds of card, and we're all knocked out. hahaha.
some things will be left behind in the chalet.
thats it.
and i feel sorry for the people who have to clean up our chalet.
its in a total mess, seriously.
had some talks, and still some problems left hanging unsolved. well, its the end of year one already huh. lets all enjoy this holidays, and move on. we cant enjoy poly life, if we believe we wont. look straight ahead, and go. turn back, and you'll fall behind. this is something that everyone knows.
OKAY. off to my daily routine. <3
10:28 PM; &I'll let it all end here.
-Monday, March 02, 2009 '
life feels different these few days. i know why.
my mind is preoccupied with things lately,
and i'm thinking hard, harder than how my mind functioned during the exams.
its always nice to have someone to share your burden,
but its worrying to see how that someone worry about you.
contradicting,
but true.
I looked back at some things that happened last year,
and saw that some things could have been avoided.
i guess i was not sensitive enough.
now i dont wanna think about that anymore.
i wanna be all about you.
1:00 PM; &I'll let it all end here.